DON'T WANT TO BE ANOREXIC.
Formerly - dontwanttobeaverage
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My name's Kasia. I'm a 17 year old girl
in recovery who's recovered from Anorexia. I've had Anorexia since May 2010. I also suffer from severe depression, anxiety and some OCD tendencies.
I've been in recovery since September 2010, but I only began taking recovery seriously, and wanting it for myself, in January 2011, once I realised I was wasting my life in hospital.
I went into hospital at the end of October 2010 and left in March 2011. I went to hell and back there.
I am at a healthy weight recommended for my height, but I will not discuss my weight or height because I believe any discussion of numbers leads to a disordered competition, so please do not ask.
I'm trying to lead a healthier lifestyle, whilst inspiring my followers to do the same by choosing recovery.
This is where I will write about my ups and my downs, and I hope to show those of you with eating disorders that recovery doesn't mean "getting fat". It means leading a healthy and happy life with freedom. My posts will mostly consist of personal posts, inspirational photos or quotes, research into the psychology of eating disorders, and also a few items on fitness and nutrition.
My daddy has a page on my blog called "The Gospel According to Dad" which I'm hoping will show you how much your ED affects those around you, and maybe if a parent of an eating disordered child sees my blog, they will see that they're not alone in this experience either.
Think of this as a recovery blog, but if are you triggered by talk of exercise then please read with caution as I sometimes post about my workouts. This is a place that inspires recovery, and also a healthy lifestyle.
I love giving advice, so if you need help with anything, I'm always here for you, even if it's just as a distraction. And you can always contact me by tagging a post with dontwanttobeanorexic.I answer privately if it's unrelated to me/my food posts/my blog. br>
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Anonymous asked: hi, i was wondering if you could offer some advice. i'm trying to regain and the dietician i used to see had me on 2000, but i've noticed i've recently stopped gaining and so i think i need to increase. i'm not sure how much i should increase to (2500 seems to be the recommended) and i already have difficulty reaching even 2000. i was wondering what you found helpful with increasing and how you'd space out this intake (like, how many calories for a snack/meal and such). i'm a bit lost right now.
Thats so good that you’ve realised that you need to up to gain more :) Good on you!
Well, really I think your dietician had it wrong to start with because in my opinion, you should eat 2500-3000 to restore your body completely.
So you could try adding more calorie dense foods to your diet or adding nutrient dense shakes like Ensure to your diet if you feel too full from solids. Also setting a meal plan might help because then you have to stick to it.
A good spread for 2500 is:
B - 500
S - 200
L - 600
S - 300
D - 700
S - 200
Of course you can subtract bits from meals, as long as you add them back into another meal, say if you want a smaller breakfast, you should have a bigger snack or dinner. But remember going over is not the end of the world! Going over these guide number will help you get to your goal quicker :)
• 15 May 2013
Anonymous asked: Your breakfast looks so delicious, how do you make your overnight oats?
Okay, so I’m so happy to share this recipe because it’s frickin’ delicious omg.
The basic overnight oats recipe is 1/4 cup oats, 1/4 cup yogurt, 1/4 cup milk of your choice and 1T of chia seeds. But obviously you can double this, triple it, whatever you please :)
Then you can add whatever add ins you want.
If you like peanut butter, it’s grrrrreat to mix these ingredients in an almost finished jar of PB because why not?
Today’s oats were something like this:
- 45g oats
- 140g yogurt
- 150g milk (yeah, I weigh my milk because I can’t be bothered to measure it out in a jug lol)
- 1T chia seeds
- 1 scoop chocolate whey
- 1 scoop chocolate cassein
- a bit of stevia
- 1T hemp hearts
Mix all that together thoroughly and then add a big ol’ spoonful of peanut butter in the morning.
I’ve added the protein powders because it was after my workout :)
• 15 May 2013 • 2 notes
I forgot how much I love overnight oats especially this wonderful 700+ cal bowl of chocolate overnight oats with a swirl of PB.
• 15 May 2013 • 5 notes
A Little Love Is All It Takes: GIVEAWAY
okay so i’ve decided that i’m going to do a give away:) you guys have until may 16th at 11pm to reblog this:) (three weeks from today) rules are you:
- must be following me
- can only reblog it 5 times (no more than that or you’ll be disqualified, i’m all about fairness and equal chances for…
• 14 May 2013 • 196 notes
My Recovery Care Package Giveaway!
I know I’ve been promising this for ages and it might be a bit of anticlimax but I can’t afford a really extravagant giveaway so I hope you can all appreciate my intentions :)
In the package:
- Cocoa butter cream, for fading self-harm scars.
- A butterfly tattoo, to use in a similar way to The Butterfly Project.
- A non-metal hair elastic. When I was in hospital, I would use this in place of cutting by snapping the band against my skin - it gave some release without actually harming myself.
- Nail dip usually used to prevent nail biting, but it’s incredibly useful for stopping purging if you use it.
- A teddy, just for comfort.
- A de-stress facemask.
- A set of bath bombs, to treat yourself and give yourself a pampering.
- A small canvas to paint on when you’re in need of distraction.
- (Not pictured) A set of dot stickers, similar to the ones I use, that you stick around the house and when you see an item with a sticker, you pay yourself a compliment until it becomes a natural habit.
- (Not pictured) A few health bars, like Nakd or Trek.
- (Not pictured) A box of Yogi tea of your choice.
(The box insn’t included because I realised it raises postage price without having much practical use for recovery, so I’m sorry it’s in the pic.)
I’ve tried to make the tool kit unisex :-)
I know this isn’t anything cool like an iPhone or some cool clothes, but these things and the techniques you can learn from them really helped me in recovery and I hope they can do the same for you. These items aren’t expensive, and they’re available probably wherever you are, so if you don’t win, but you can see how these items would help you, I urge you to buy a similar recovery tool kit :-)
Enter dontwanttobeanorexic’s Recovery Care Package Giveaway
Closes July 10th, so get entering!
Please remember to follow the instructions on Rafflecopter as I will be checking every entry has actually followed and reblogged the post.
• 14 May 2013 • 89 notes
This is very similar to the recovery tool box I’m giving away :)
I’m glad someone else has had this idea because it means more people can utilize this as a coping mechanism.
(Source: summerofrecovery, via littlerecoveringchef)
• 14 May 2013 • 24,384 notes
Cooked dinner for me and my mum (salmon and fried brown rice, onions and trimmed beans) but then she told me some shit news so I ended up sobbing into my plate.
• 14 May 2013 • 4 notes
feministmermaid asked: my dearest kasia, you are the best person on tumblr, and i'm so glad i've had the chance to know you <3
My stunning Kathryn, no I’m not hehehe, you’re making me blush. Ily xx
• 14 May 2013 • 2 notes
Anonymous asked: Kasia, I can't get over what a lovely, supportive, non judgmental, totally amazing person you are! <3
Everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle, so never judge them <3
Thank you xx
• 14 May 2013
Anonymous asked: Hey love, I hope that this is not triggering, but I need your help. It is so damn difficult to recover while everyone is getting "summer ready" everyone is dieting and exercising and it is just so hard to NOT exercise while eating weight gain amounts.... I hate that I feel like this because I KNOW that I have to gain weight TW (bmi 17.5) but I get so confused when I see "fit" girls which seem so much slimmer than me and I don't think I have a disordered body image. So this is genetics I guess? x
I feel your feels, babe, but this is just another hurdle you have to overcome, another wave you have to surf.
There will always be people dieting around you. Sadly, in this day an age, that is just fact, you’re going to have to learn to put your health before your envy for their dieting. Why this envy occurs - who knows? Because frankly, it’s stupid. I envy people who are confident in themselves much more than those who can resist a donut and order a salad at lunch.
Knowing that you are underweight, it is unlikely that your perception of your own body is accurate so just trust that fact that you’re still underweight, and still need to gain, and don’t compare yourself to other.
• 14 May 2013 • 1 note
Anonymous asked: you asked on facebook what drove people to recover. i don't think i've ever talked about this, but i will with you (safely anonymous.) - last summer, things got very bad. i tried to kill myself. and i don't remember much from that day or week, it was all a blur. but i do remember that my younger brother, 12 at the time, found me, on the kitchen floor, wrist cut. and that image of him seeing me there, his innocent face.. it is my biggest inspiration to fight all of this. x
I’m sorry you ever felt that you weren’t worthy of living, or felt you just couldn’t take it anymore.
I hope now you are grateful that you were found, because you are wanted and you are loved.
I’m glad you’re fighting, stay strong. And thank you for sharing your story.
If anyone else would like to share their reasons for recovering, head over to my Facebook page and leave me a comment :)
• 14 May 2013 • 1 note
Anonymous asked: Hi, I just want to say that I feel totally inadequate in terms of my diet in comparison to you, I mean, you eat super healthily and work out all the time :( My BMI is 19.5ish and I am recovering from anorexia, I just don't know where to start in terms of healthy eating and exercise?
Oh my gosh don’t feel inadequate at all! I’m bmi 22 and the only reason I eat healthy is because my body is a vessel I want to look after but that’s not to say I never treat myself! And I exercise 2-4 times a week at most because its fun! Do what makes YOU feel good and don’t compare yourself to others because you will feel adequate. Try zumba or dance class if you want to start getting active, or a sport you enjoyed pre-ED if you had one. Get a friend or family member to go with you and turn it into a bonding experience. As for eating healthy, don’t force it or you won’t enjoy it. Listen to your body and learn what it wants. Sometimes you may want a healthy, sometimes you might not, and that’s okay. If you think you’re eating too much processed food, start cooking fresh. It’s fun and you can cook for your family too :) make healthy swaps like milk choc for dark choc and sugar cereals for oats and eat lots of fresh fruit and veg.
But most of all never feel inadequate.
• 14 May 2013 • 4 notes
Anonymous asked: I have suffered from anorexia for the last 2 years and at my worst my BMI was 14, I was in hospital, and as you probably know, it's a fucking awful place to be. I managed to get away with very low BMI of 15/16 whilst an outpatient with CAMHS for the next year or so, luckily my parents wouldn't give up on me, they didn't want me to go into an inpatient unit but didn't want me to remain ill either. This October I decided to make the shift myself, my BMI is now 20, and I feel fucking awesome! xoxox
Omg you rock! Similar train of events to mine there, which gives me more feels. Love you x
• 14 May 2013 • 8 notes
Anonymous asked: sorry I'm not trying to come across as arsey in that strong v skinny post I just made I was just surprised at your view on it! I believe it is a positive self goal and wanted to try show the positives of it!
You weren’t arsey at all but do please reread my response and see that I wasn’t trying to completely reject it. Just saying that body acceptance at any point should come first, then self improvement. X
• 14 May 2013