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DON'T WANT TO BE ANOREXIC.
Formerly - dontwanttobeaverage
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My name's Kasia. I'm a 17 year old girl in recovery who's recovered from Anorexia. I've had Anorexia since May 2010. I also suffer from severe depression, anxiety and some OCD tendencies.
I've been in recovery since September 2010, but I only began taking recovery seriously, and wanting it for myself, in January 2011, once I realised I was wasting my life in hospital.
I went into hospital at the end of October 2010 and left in March 2011. I went to hell and back there.
I am at a healthy weight recommended for my height, but I will not discuss my weight or height because I believe any discussion of numbers leads to a disordered competition, so please do not ask.
I'm trying to lead a healthier lifestyle, whilst inspiring my followers to do the same by choosing recovery.
This is where I will write about my ups and my downs, and I hope to show those of you with eating disorders that recovery doesn't mean "getting fat". It means leading a healthy and happy life with freedom. My posts will mostly consist of personal posts, inspirational photos or quotes, research into the psychology of eating disorders, and also a few items on fitness and nutrition.
My daddy has a page on my blog called "The Gospel According to Dad" which I'm hoping will show you how much your ED affects those around you, and maybe if a parent of an eating disordered child sees my blog, they will see that they're not alone in this experience either.
Think of this as a recovery blog, but if are you triggered by talk of exercise then please read with caution as I sometimes post about my workouts. This is a place that inspires recovery, and also a healthy lifestyle.
I love giving advice, so if you need help with anything, I'm always here for you, even if it's just as a distraction. And you can always contact me by tagging a post with dontwanttobeanorexic.I answer privately if it's unrelated to me/my food posts/my blog.
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Anonymous asked: Thanks so much for helping me realise recovery is worthit- today I ate 4 slices of soda bread and butter spread 1cm thick yum! After 6 whole months restricting I am so happy I can eat again, with no guilt, and freely. Thank you so much for your blog!!!!!!!!!!!
Omg, bread and butter is so yummy lol I freakin’ love buttery bread. Good choice!
I’m so happy, baby! Enjoy nourishing your body! xxx
Anonymous asked: ah sorry i dont know how that got lost. basically my parents have decided to go on a 5 day-eat-whatever-they-want:2 day fast diet to lower their cholestrol, at the first time when i feel ive truly overcome an ed which i battled alone. i cant tell them because i don't want to hurt them since it is in the past, but i am really enraged that they've -unknowingly- ruined the best i've ever felt about food by reminding me of things i thought i'd left behind.
Ahh… this diet… I have been hearing a lot about this… “lifestyle change”
Boo, I honestly don’t know what to tell you. If I was in your position, I’d probably research how shit the principles of this diet are, but, because I’m angry at anyone who does this diet and claims it’s healthy, I’ll do it for you! How nice of me :)
When you restrict for 24 hours, it is likely you will binge the next day, on your feeding day to make up for it. You may consume less than 200 calories on one day, but the next it’s likely you’ll eat up to 4,000, maybe more, because a) your body is seeking out food for survival, and b) psychologically, you have been told this is your day to eat whatever the frack you want and not many people waste an opportunity like that especially after a day of almost nothing. Secondly, the fast days do little more than damage your metabolism, as do the refeeding days because you are likely to be eating a few times throughout the day, maybe 2-3 hours apart (I am aware these are just guesses, but they are highly likely guesses) and although this will raise the metabolism a little, this constant pushing of food into the stomach (and I predict, high quanitities of nutritionally-empty foods) is only going to stretch the stomach meaning a larger stomach when you next fast and more difficulty.
These are just the arguments I’d put in place. And to be honest, I might have made the last one up, but it sounds possible and it’s likely 80% of people would believe that if I told them it.
But do do your own research to see if you can find something less made up. Also research lots of yummy healthy recipes your family could eat together DAILY and if all else fails…
Bake lots of frickin’ cake and baked goods (even hash brownies… Hello, munchies!) to sabbotage your ‘rents ;) x
Anonymous asked: kasia, i really need advice :( i had bulimia for a year, and nobody ever found out. eventually i decided i wanted to change, and 1.5 years later, despite occasionally having slip ups, I eat a normal diet and exercise normally. This last month, everything was perfect. Better than it'd ever been; i felt i was nourishing myself without being obsessive, i actually enjoyed exercise, and i really liked my body. last week was my final week of highschool and i let myself binge eat chocolate and...
they were surprised at how passionate i was. they dismissed all my arguments, and have decided to try it out, and i can’t explain to them how hard it is to watch them treat a life destroying disorder as a game, because that would involve discussing the past. And i don’t want to do that because i feel i have overcome it, and it would be painful to bring it up, not to mention it would hurt them and make life very awkward. but i’m also really really angry at them for ruining my positivity.
Babe, it seems I didn’t receive the middle part of your ask, but what I’ve deduced is that some of your loved ones have decided to purge their food to be skinny? Please correct me if I’m wrong.
I’ve been through a few, in fact too many, situations like this, where people treat EDs as a game but the stakes their playing with is their lives. Maybe because most people know about my ED already, I feel I can talk openly about my experiences to deter people off it, but bar trying to talk them out of it and telling them your own experience and nightmare with it, I can’t think of much else you can do to help them. Perhaps tell a teacher? But that seems very snake-in-the-grass, but if worst comes to worst that’s an option.
Anonymous asked: Ignore those jealous anons, I totally understand your decisions! How did you go from recovery calories (3000kcals a day) to normal 2000kcal? I feel full and bloated right now but am scared to cut cals to 2000 incase I binge, but I am bmi 24 so do not want to be overweight. Thanks x
Do it slowly! You may be surprised that you maintain at higher than 2000. Cut from 3000, to 2800, then two weeks later 2600, and so on until you maintain two weeks in a row.
Thank you for this message also x
The difference between wanting to self-improve and self-destruct
I think, considering the last question I received, this is an important post to make at this time.
Let’s begin with self-destruction. Actions upon the self that are detrimental to one’s own mental or physical health, one’s relationship with the self or one’s relationships with others.
Starving is a prime example of this. It affects your health, both mental and physical, and your relationship with yourself and with others.
People who do things to self-destruct are not generally happy people.
The opposite can be said for people who aim to self-improve.
And that’s how you can tell someone’s aims from their actions. Someone who diets to be “skinny” and is never happy with how they look is someone who is self-destructing. Someone who aims for “health” and “strength” and is happy with how they are at any set point but aims to better themselves is someone on the path to self-improvement.
Having been through, and come out of, my self-destructive “phase” I am now a happier person. I no longer crave attention, especially negative and “scandalous” attention. What I want is to love and accept myself and to be the best version of me I can be. I aim for this in all aspects of my life, however, because this blog is based upon a disordered past, naturally most of my posts are about food or body image, so I can see why this strive for goodness seems aimed only at food. But it’s not the case. I am happy with where I am now, but I want to feel even better. I do this through eating food that nourishes my body and exercising a few times a week, as written in my blog, but also by trying to new things, such as rejoining my old art class or participating in exchanges, or even finally picking what I want to do at university. These are all things that will help my better myself as an individual, and I don’t see that as a negative thing. I am happy with how I am now, but I have years ahead of me, so why not put them to learning new things about my personality, my body and the world around me?
When I got this question:
I was frankly confused. Why wouldn’t someone want to do something to make themselves feel better?
Furthermore, when I got this question:
I was confused for a different reason. Why was this person so intense about my life? Concern is one thing, a thing that this question clearly didn’t convey. It seems aggressive and accusative to me. And for why? This blog is but one aspect of my life, one that barely begins to explain the other 90 or so percent of my existence. So why did this person think that they knew me well enough to make almost hurtful remarks?
Very recently, my PT and I decided on a new training and meal plan for me because I wanted to try something different. In that aspect of my life (food and exercise) I was no longer improving, and why do something, even if you enjoy it as it is, if you don’t want to make the experience even better? I choose to take pack lunches (starting from maybe two days ago, so “controlling” my ass, anon) because I know what suits my body. Through recovery, I have learnt what my body works well with and what it gets irritated by so why would I put my health in a stranger’s hands. Like I said in the first answer, this isn’t to say that I don’t eat out or treat myself. And like I said, it’s probably about 70% healthy to 30% otherwise, but I’d rather have that groggy, post-junk food feeling after a big, yummy slice of cake than any ol’ sandwich so I’ll pack my own lunch. Plus I’m an excellent chef!
I’m hoping by now you can see my arguments. The difference between self-destructive, “controlling” behaviors, and what I’m doing, and also, how rude, intrusive and frankly unwarranted it is to ask accusative questions about someone’s life when you know very little about that person except for what they choose not to censor on their blog.
From now on, because I have taken the time to explain my recent lifestyle choices in this post, I will be blocking any questions I get that I find offensive or unnecessary. I’ve wasted too much of my time being too nice to intrusive anons, or too defensive when really all that matters is that I’m okay with what I’m doing, and now, on my path to bettering myself, I won’t be spending time on these kinds of people anymore. You are toxic, and giving you even the time of day is more toxic.
Like I said in my last answer, you just do you. If you are genuinely concerned for my health, come off anon or send me a message on Facebook to show you genuinely care. And if you don’t, don’t bother with these sorts of questions anymore, for I don’t care for them.
Anonymous asked: I get that, about eating well but why do you have to take a packed lunch to go out? Just because you want to eat well doesn't mean you have to pack a lunch, right? Cafes sell salads or pasta or sandwiches. You can easily eat out healthily. It just seems a bit weird packing a lunch, I understand wanting to eat healthy and feel good but it is possible to do that without packing food. It just seems a little controlling.
Oh, that’s just a recent thing because my PT put me on a new training/meal plan.
Ask him :) I just do as I’m told to get the body I want. And before you ask, yes, he does know about my past.
Also, I think you could use your time far more efficiently than sending me anonymous messages on here when you clearly have me on instagram and without knowing the rest of my life, y’know. If you have concerns about my lifestyle or whatever, really have the balls to contact me off anon rather than accusing me of beign “weird” or controlling over my diet.
YOU JUST DO YOU, KIDDO. It’s better that way.
Hey, guys!
I just had my final exhibition for AS-level art! No going back now, lol, that’s it. Scared to get my results, but the showcase went well anyway.
Here’s a few photos of my two pieces, one on the theme of Space (the four vertical images) and one on Fast Food.
Can we all just appreciate how cute my mum is here? My dad’s the arty one in my family but he’s away and my mum was so excited to come and see my work and she was acting so proud. Omg, look at her little, beaming face ♥
QUESTBAR GIVEAWAY:
- 2 boxes (24 different bars) sample pack, shipping and handling included.
HOW MANY WINNERS?
I’ve yet to decide. Perhaps one or two. If one, that person will win 2 boxes(24 bars), and if two, each one gets 12 bars.
LOCATION?
You must live on Earth!
Ways to win:
- *Reblog post. This is mandatory (if you don’t have a tumblr, that’s okay, head on over to the link below)
- Click here to enter giveaway
- All entries(reblogs included) will be checked!
You may enter daily, and more than once per day. The more you enter, bigger the chance of winning.
WHAT ARE THEY?
Click below to learn more about Quest Bars.
Anonymous asked: This may sound odd but would you please be able to give me some tips on how to recover , where to get strength from how to cope wit the feeling of food in your stomach after eating and how to cope with the voice and its abuse it gives you , im so scared of it , im terrified of the punishment it gives me , i developed full blown anorexia in 2011 however i had endos since 2005/6 left untreated till it was anorexia and im so tired of figthing can you please help me please
I’ll try to help you as best as can.
I know fighting is tiring but it’s the only way and once you win that fight, imagine how you’ll feel. Imagine what it’ll be like to no longer care how much you weigh, how many calories you’re eating, how many minutes of exercise you’ve done, etc. Imagine that freedom. It’s daunting, but also the most perfect goal.
If you can’t recover for yourself, is there anyone else you could recover for? Your parents or siblings? Imagine how they would feel if they lost you!
The feeling of fullness is something that you have to deal with. It’s normal - everyone feels it after eating! It’s a sign you’ve nourished your body adequately. If it’s too much for you, distract yourself or sleep it off.
As for the voice, the only thing I can tell you is that the stronger you fight, the quieter it will get. The only reason it’s loud is because it knows it’s losing the battle and it doesn’t want to lose it’s grip on you. So fight harder. Make it diminish until it’s gone completely.
Good luck, baby, I’m always here for you x
Anonymous asked: What do you think is an appropriate/recommended rate of weight gain in recovery? As in, at what stage is recommended I increase if I'm not gaining 'fast' enough? And how often do you recommend weighing myself to ensure my weight is going in the direction it should? Sorry for all the questions! I've been eating about 1700-2000 and gaining about .5 kg every few weeks or so. My weight gain tends to come and go in short bursts.
.5-1kg is recommended (but please no one panic if they gain more! sometimes, I’d gain .5 in one week and then 2 the next on the exact same meal plan. It’s recommended you eat more if you’re not gaining .5 a week because you need to get weight restored.
Weigh yourself no more than once a week I’d say, even better if someone else can weigh you and you don’t see the number as this may deter you from sticking with recovery.
1700-2000 isn’t enough when weight restoring. You need at least 2500 (that 500 surplus is what makes you gain) to weight restore, restore your bodily functions and fix your metabolism.
Anonymous asked: why are you clean eating?
Why not?
Depending on how long you’ve been following me, you’ll know that I’ve experimented a lot with my diet since recovery, and personally, clean eating is just the most preferable.
Pre-ED, I knew nothing of nutrition and how much what we eat affects us. I’ve noticed a pattern when I eat fast food or junk food. I get bad moods, I become lethargic, I get bad skin, poor concentration, strange bowel movements, to mention a few. Really, you are what you eat. Your body has an engine, and engines run best on premium fuel.
Now this isn’t to say I never eat junk food, because I’d be lying if I said I ate 100% clean. I’m as guilty as anyone to grabbing a greasy burger after a heavy night out, but it’s all about striking a balance. I’d say I eat about 70% clean and 30% typically “bad” foods.
Again, diet is a very personal thing. You have to tailor it to yourself. I know lots of people eat 50% clean and are still perfectly healthy, but for me, this would make me lethargic and moody.
I hope this explains clearly for you.
Going out with my boyfriend so I packed protein powder and oats and box with mackerel, peas, sweetcorn and wholewheat pasta to get everything in in my feeding time. I wish clean eating was easier when going out because having to pack clean food means I can’t eat out with my boo and stuff :/
Anonymous asked: your body. oh. my. god. could it actually be any more perfect?!?! why do you think things like anorexia exist? it's so weird that we can reason that size is irrelevant, that bodies are incredible at sustaining us and working, that other people don't actually care how fat we are, yet it still exists. i've come so far, and the size of my body is literally my lowest priority, but i still have obsessive habits of feeling my ribs/hips and it just doesn't make sense.
Aw, thank you, doll!
I honestly don’t know why such terrible things exist, but it makes warriors out people who never thought they had the strength to conquer over their EDs.
theuglyelephant asked: Tiana!
Tiana: A time you tried the hardest for something.
Definitely recovery. I’ve never tried so bloody hard in my life to get something once I put my mind to it.
