Don't want to be anorexic.

dontwanttobeanorexic: dontwanttobeanorexic: My Recovery Care...

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:48:02 +0100

dontwanttobeanorexic:

My Recovery Care Package Giveaway!

I know I’ve been promising this for ages and it might be a bit of anticlimax but I can’t afford a really extravagant giveaway so I hope you can all appreciate my intentions :)

In the package:

Cocoa butter cream, for fading self-harm scars.

A butterfly tattoo, to use in a similar way to The Butterfly Project.

A non-metal hair elastic. When I was in hospital, I would use this in place of cutting by snapping the band against my skin - it gave some release without actually harming myself.

Nail dip usually used to prevent nail biting, but it’s incredibly useful for stopping purging if you use it.

A teddy, just for comfort.

A de-stress facemask.

A set of bath bombs, to treat yourself and give yourself a pampering.

A small canvas to paint on when you’re in need of distraction.

(Not pictured) A set of dot stickers, similar to the ones I use, that you stick around the house and when you see an item with a sticker, you pay yourself a compliment until it becomes a natural habit.

(Not pictured) A few health bars, like Nakd or Trek.

(Not pictured) A box of Yogi tea of your choice.

(The box insn’t included because I realised it raises postage price without having much practical use for recovery, so I’m sorry it’s in the pic.)

I’ve tried to make the tool kit unisex :-)

I know this isn’t anything cool like an iPhone or some cool clothes, but these things and the techniques you can learn from them really helped me in recovery and I hope they can do the same for you. These items aren’t expensive, and they’re available probably wherever you are, so if you don’t win, but you can see how these items would help you, I urge you to buy a similar recovery tool kit :-)

Enter dontwanttobeanorexic’s Recovery Care Package Giveaway

Closes July 10th, so get entering!

You have a higher chance of winning the more points you gain, so the best thing to do would be to donate £5 to Beat through https://www.justgiving.com/Kasia-Dutch-Color-Run-for-Beat/ because that earns you 10 points and goes to a great cause :)

Fuck the anons, you're great. @anon fight me irl, you pussy ass bitch

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:42:37 +0100

This made me giggle. I think we’d be good friends lol

Do you ever feel guilty about having the ability to recover in a way that most don't? This sounds bad, it's not! I don't want to sound like I'm being offensive, I just know there are quite a few of us on Tumblr who feel like recovery is so much more of a struggle because the food we'd like to eat is so expensive and gyms are too expensive and PTs aren't even worth considering. Peanut butter is somewhat of a luxury for me! I don't know anyone else who answers honestly so I thought I'd ask you.

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:41:55 +0100

I don’t really know what you’re trying to ask, but my family is by no means rich if that’s what you’re trying to insinuate. I am fortunate enough that my PT is free as a favor to me and my mother, but regardless, I didn’t see him during my recovery so its moot. My mother is very skilled at utilizing food coupons and offers, and buying in bulk in order to make sure we spend the bare minimum.

Whatever it is you’re trying to say, I’d like to say my recovery had only to do with my own strength and willpower. I won’t lie, I was a bit offended by this message as I feel you undermined my strength to recover by putting it down to any privileges I was fortunate enough to have.

Absolutely beautiful.

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:00:54 +0100

Absolutely beautiful.

Congratulations on recovering! It is wonderful that you fought so hard and succeeded! What does being recovered mean to you? What made you realise that you'd finally recovered?

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:28:45 +0100

Thank you <3

I hate this question though because it’s hard to answer! I don’t know, I don’t think about every calorie that enters my mouth, I don’t feel the need to exercise to make up for what I ate, or eat less the day after I’ve treated myself, I no longer hate my body, I see my flaws and work on improving my relationship with them and I learn to pick out my good points, I don’t know, I just don’t feel like I did a year or two ago. I feel normal.

cookies and cream oatmeal sounds heavenly, were you just naming it after the pb on top or did you put cookiea and cream into the actual oatmeal xx

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:50:31 +0100

It’s cookies and cream because that’s the flavor of protein I added but Omg adding oreos would be divine!

Cookies and cream chia seed oats with natural peanut butter and...

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:21:52 +0100

Cookies and cream chia seed oats with natural peanut butter and Cookie Nookie peanut butter #heaven

Hey Kash, you seem to be handling these stupid bullshit anon messages really well but just in case they ever make you doubt yourself: you aren't up yourself at all. It is so refreshing to see someone actually like themselves and be living a normal, amazing life. Your blog actually makes me happy and I find it weird that some people are upset/jealous that you're living it. Just my ramblings at 5am xxx

Sat, 18 May 2013 11:04:40 +0100

Thank you ever so much for this message. It means a lot xx

DUH anon, A lot of people like kasia. If you're jaleous, get a life

Sat, 18 May 2013 04:37:57 +0100

Like really, if you don’t have anything good to say to someone, why say it. Utterly unnecessary because I really I just don’t care lol.

Thank u xx

God I hate you.

Sat, 18 May 2013 04:30:05 +0100

Again, I ask the age old question, “what do you gain from sending me a message like this?” Did it make you feel big? Did you feel powerful? Really how does this help you in anyway?

Your feelings towards me are your problem. I frankly do not care for them. If you don’t like me or what I do, simply don’t go on my blog. Avoid me. It might give you time to re-evaluate yourself as a human being, because clearly you are not a kind one.

This is the first piece of hate I’ve gotten since starting my blog almost 2 years ago so I must be doing something right. Handle that better, instead of being a little bitch about it.

Could you try and be any less up yourself? Thanks.

Sat, 18 May 2013 04:25:00 +0100

Actually I’m quite happy with how I am as a person, so no, I will not try to be any “less stuck up” just because some cowardly anon told me to. Kindly don’t return to my blog. Thanks.

Thank you, Mari! X

Fri, 17 May 2013 19:01:33 +0100

Thank you, Mari! X

Thankyou, that makes me feel a lot better xx

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:04:24 +0100

No problem x

I think the distinction between subjective & objective binges are relevant when thinking about 'binging' during recovery. In that if it is purely physical binge (i.e. because you ARE hungry) as opposed to an emotional binge (trying to fill a gap left by the absence of something else!). The former is likely after restricting, the motivation & reasons for binging need to be looked at before saying whether it's normal or not :) There is a difference between feeding an undernourished body & binging.

Fri, 17 May 2013 12:04:11 +0100

Yes, that’s a fair point

I would have to say binge eating isn't "normal" and should actually be carefully watched because could end up becoming worse

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:18:35 +0100

It is normal in recovery actually because when you start to refeed the body you get extreme hunger. Of course you should keep a close eye on any eating habits during recovery, but it is normal.

Is binge eating normal in the early stages of recovery? x

Fri, 17 May 2013 10:39:07 +0100

Yes <3

Good luck with your exams Kasia! :) xo

Thu, 16 May 2013 23:23:31 +0100

It’s so sweet you remembered, thank you! Xx

Where do you get your clean eating recipes form? (website) xxxx

Thu, 16 May 2013 21:56:36 +0100

I don’t, I make them up :) I get inspiration from tumblr and Instagram xx

How do you make your address private on the amazon wishlist?

Thu, 16 May 2013 19:56:05 +0100

I don’t know. I thought it did it automatically?

y u so awsomeee :o

Thu, 16 May 2013 17:17:31 +0100

I’m not! I’m just honest x